First Post

As I create this blog, it is a little terrifying, what if someone finds it and knows who I am? I hope I get to the point where I am comfortable posting this out to friends, family and strangers, but for today I am not ready for that. 

What sparked my interest in a blog was a book I have ready several times. "Life Without Ed" by Jenni Schaefer. 10/10 recommend reading if you OR anyone you know struggles with a relationship with food. As a read and re-read this book it brings me to tears every time. I feel like I am often reading my own thoughts and experiences. Someone else feels this way? Someone was confident enough to publish the darkest parts of them? Someone made it to the other side?

My other inspiration was from someone I met in treatment. I met plenty of other people with a variety of eating disorders, but this specific patient has become what I believe will be a lifelong friend and support system. We will call her Bethany. Bethany and I are polar opposites, if we would have met anywhere else, we likely would have never continued any type of relationship. In fact, I remember her telling me one time she thought I would be a bitch before she got to know me. I have never had someone like Bethany be in my corner like she is. She texts me every night to ask me if I have nourished my body. She is so special to me, and I would like to think I support her as well.

If this every sees the light of day, I hope to provide context that helps just one person or helps someone understand the struggles. I still struggle.

I love you Bethany!